Deviant Journal is kinda like cutting my wrists. I only come with a ferocious wall of text when I feel emotionally vulnerable, then I post something funny to keep my family from seeing. ^_^ For instance, I hate myself. I don't think before I act. I bought a $3 rat at the pet store and now I hate him! It's not even for any good reason! I hate him because he's scared of me like everything else with half a brain. I went to the mall today this woman took off running when I offered to carry her things for her. So I went to hot topic and bought four bottles of hair bleaching kit.(which sets my funds to 0) Then when I said, "I feel like crap I'm going to take it out on my rat, who has failed me as a companion. My Companion Cube plushie doll has made a better companion than Thorious. The it overflowed online, "No No! Don't kill him!" "Why the fuck not?" "Well, it's not a REAL failure!" So then I remembered something Daniel told me: "Serial killers start by torturing animals then move up to people. Thats why the guy throwing cats off his roof is definitely nuts"

So I decided not to electrocute my little "friend". Left a hell of a lot of drama to sort out.